Thu 5 Mar 2009
It’s Okay Cousin, Those Ghosts Were Mine
Posted by laup under Discussion, Meditations, Outbreak, Playtime, Supernal Diver
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Crazy dream time again. Wandering through the streets of my haunted house existence and spending time with alter-ego manifestations of my friends. In this case, the detached observer who wanders in and out of scenes like a fool with no ties to one thing or the other.
I wake up to the sound of those popping Droll Dumplings. Just about ready to serve I imagine. K and I are just about ready to watch Crocodile Dundee. She hasn’t seen it yet. What better tasty treat than a bowl of properly cooked droll dumpling popcorn? Whoo and hoo, its movie time in the Honeycomb Hindout and there’s munchies galore!
The phone rings again, and I can tell this is going to be one of those random encounter calls. Whoa, total surprise from the depths. It’s my old time cousin from the way back machine days, trying to put the clues on his puzzle board together. Can I lend him a hand? Sure can! The memory banks are loaded to the gills with relevant material.
I can’t help but think something significant has happened again.
If miracle #1 gets me back in touch with who I was, and miracle #2 gets me back in touch with the time before I was what I was, then what if a third miracle returns me to the feeling of the time before that? My cousin and I walked in states of consciousness that belong to the deepest parts of my known being.
I’m going back in time and seeing things that I had never imagined I would witness. All the way back to the beforelife? The arrow is pointing in a direction I refuse to ignore now. Just have to pull back on the bow.
My cousin talks about a time in a spooky haunted house I was living in with my folks at one time. He came to visit. I’d forgotten it, but when he describes it to me, the memory comes back to me like lightning. An isolated farmhouse, wind blowing and trees scratching at the walls of the house. The tingle of scary ghosts devouring all sense of space in the room you’re sleeping in.
There are all sorts of things I remember being scared to death about during that time as a young pouchling. The Blue Meanies of Yellow Submarine, for example. My cousin had a Blue Meanie jacket and he wasn’t scared at all. Me, though, my folks’ cardboard cutout they got from a movie theater, well that kept me from sleep many a night.
My cousin was scared of that house and its eerie inhabitants. I got into the excitement of his fear as we stayed awake at night talking like crazy, but I also remember thinking cool, there’s ghosts out there and I like them. The spooks and the specters, the ghosts and the goblins. I’ve been walking this haunted house at least since the day I was born, and before that? I can hardly fathom.
I hold the images of these memories in my mind and wait to see what happens.
Then, it occurs to me, what about the ghosts around me that scare people or make them nervous? Have I been freaking people out or making them uncomfortable by not being responsible for my own specters? I sense a windy monster at the window looking at me, rattling chains and blowing moans with perhaps a bit too much glee. Now, needless to say not everyone is scared of this Missus Mooty Mire wind-breaking goblin thingee (Hexe would just blow her into the oven, and Xtine would sit her down for hard core tea and biscuits, for example). But it’s a matter of being responsible for the sake of those who don’t have script immunity.
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooh fuck!
hard core tea and biscuits! i laughed so hard and so loud the cat jumped off my lap. an just when he was all snugglepuss warm and languid drooping paw out at an odd angle almost snoring!
that’s good shit, brother.
how you made your way toward the bugaloos in your own way, little pouchling. bravo! one way toward is eeeeeeeee! scary cool! no?
hekate yeah!
hexe is picking her teeth with a toothpick made of bone, and i’m getting out my best tea things. goob a loos galore!
if you look closely, on the teapot, is engraved by some ancient master, a lovely image of goblin sitting down to tea. there at the edge are the jaws of death. oh, and that curlique image on the upper portion near the lid? a stylized version of freezing wind that turns the body to ash.
all these goblins. we make art from them. their forms are our forms. and so we make art from them.
at least, so i say now, afoot as i am and wielding expletives.
fucking hekate hauling forward in dismal times
dark breath of death surrounds me
and look! narcissus, cherry… kore’s handkerchief as if to say
now, now…
x
Missus Mooty Mire is a fine friend of mine, le petitee pouchling or is that poachling like eggs, OH – i digress in my old age, so sorry you weren’t invited to the tea party. Xtine was very entertaining in her own kind of Hekate-way.
What part of cook your own goose don’t you understand? Ghosts around you? Honey, come on down and we can entertain the ghosts together – yes, xtine and her cat will be invited and, no, don’t go there — we won’t have cat for dinner just your goose.
Ghosties are not necessarily bad if you listen to the message and then toss them into the stew. At least you progressed in our cooking class and are now sesrving cooked droll dumplings. Progress made one baby step at a time. Hmmmmmm, babies – that’s a whole different topic. Nevermind, I hear Missus Mooty Mire at the door. Sounds like brunch time to me!
Well, aside from being totally lost on what anyone is saying here, I hope the time talking with your cousin gives you what you need to move forward. You two crossed paths for a reason. Wish I could be less generic and more specific here, but that’s what the gut says.
Pay attention to that gut, Alexi. If you’re feeling lost here then you’re right at home. Pull up a chair, while Xtine pours a Hek-brewed tea and Hexe serves roast goose ala poachling. Hear that wind blowing against the window? Pay it no mind, it’s just a symptom of my own entourage of psychic critters. Who doesn’t like brunch? I’ll be saving some for the mutants and devil dogs under the bed later on. I got folks, I got folks, and they’re on the blower sending messages galore.
Yes my le petite poucet — YOU do got folks and folks and peoples and psychic critters. Go celebrate!
Celebration commencing!